It's a rather exciting feeling to have a blog again after almost 4 years; it's like a fresh new start and yet it feels somewhat nostalgic too because it makes me recall the depressing memories associated with my first blog.. which marked the ups (rarely) and downs in my first year in high school: the reconciliation of best friends (a short reprieve at most..), the falling out of normal friends, family issues and pretty much everything upsetting in life.. But now, I want this blog to be the exact opposite! By setting this journal up, I'm promising change in my own life to myself.. I want to get myself out of this whole mess, to rid the self-intensified sadness that has been enshrouding me for the past years and for once, live for myself as myself..
It's a difficult thing to do, considering the way I've lived all along, but I'm determined and I hope this journal will be a chronicle of my successes and a constant reminder to myself the things I've gone through to better myself.. Now, that sounds more inspiring! Haha but I do feel I've made some progress already these two years for I've become a much happier person around people :) and though I can't say for sure it's a good thing because I find myself too mellow nowadays to the extent that people around me keep insisting I'm fragile and bully-able (what with glass is fragile because it breaks, but you can't blame glass for breaking ._.") but I'm quite happy I've tamed my fiery temper to a very large extent because family life is much more blissful now without my shoutings and all. And just to clear a common misconception, I'm not easy to bully at all. Try me. Anytime. HAHA
Heh, but people would have never guessed what a fiery little lion I was in the past (and you can't blame me cos it's all because I'm a leo *pouts*) but I can't blame them.. people don't really understand me anyway.. haha and I rather remain a mystery to others because it's safer that way =) Most people simply think I'm a very sweet, nice and pinkish girl, and I don't deny that the former two qualities hold XD , but they don't really bother to know me past that, which is technically, quite sad because hey, who wants to be known as just the "sweet and nice pink girl". ZZZ I could probably find you a million girls in the world who fit that mould.. but more about myself another time~
Ahh I already find it tiring to just type a few paragraphs *wipes perspiration off forehead* haha how am I ever going to keep up with blogging a few times a week! I can't believe how I managed to do that last time..mymyy.. I must have been uber free then.. but now..*looks at mountain of work towering over myself and shakes head dejectedly* haha *jabs fist high in air* I will do this, I think.. anyway I shall end my post here cos I have more pressing matters like a birthday card to do so till thenn~
Oh and welcome officially to the mokie's hole!! o(^~^)o"
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