Heyy people.. finally had the time and the right mood to blog..
Back from school now and frankly, I'm rather demoralised.. I'm in charge of a group of sec4 students for math and really.. their lack of motivation or enthusiasm for math is getting to me.. I'm only going to be there for 2 months but I seriously, sincerely hope that these 2 months can help make a difference in someone's life.. Of course you might find this highly idealistic, and I myself think that it might be too much to achieve, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to try. I'm not going down without a fight. And no way am I going to give up on these kids.. They may have lost their passion for mathematics, and dislike their math teacher, but I'm not giving up on them. Budget students or not. As long as they are my students, I'm going to do my very best. It's tough to set my pride aside when dealing with their jokes, ignorance and weird stuff in general, and even more tiring and emotionally traumatising when trying to get through to students, but as I said, 2 months. 60+days. If I fail to help them, then all I can do is lament the fact that I wasn't good enough. Otherwise, let's all do our best for these kids yea! Add value to these budget kids!! JIAYOUUUU :D
Apart from work though, I haven't been doing much except drawing and creating some geog notes for the students cos I'm usually pretty tired by the time I come home from school. Most of my friends are also busy working, so nobody really bothers to stay in contact (except dear qiqi :)) even the closer ones, so.. I should just concentrate on work, I guess.. and make more new friends like ramya, crystal, fathima and wilson :)
I feel grownup nowadays, either when I'm alone in my office or eating in the canteen, and I can't say I'm liking it..
I don't feel ready to grow up..
Are you??
