Back from a math staff meeting where the math teachers are supposed to come up with lesson plans, and brainstorm as to how to improve their teaching strategies together. I don't think I was of much help because I'm not a real teacher after all; I have no idea what kind of common mistakes or misconceptions students have regarding trigonometry and neither do I have any secret formula to teaching trigonometry. Frankly, I don't even remember how my teacher taught me trigonometry. -.- So I can only just sit there and ston- erm no, listen attentively :D
I shall stop here for now. Till then!
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
Friday, 18 February 2011
The weekends are hereee :) Hahaha I love nothing more than just sitting around at home, resting, watching tv or doodling. That's how we enjoy life eh!
That said, it's not that I don't enjoy teaching or anything.. Frankly I find teaching really fun because it makes me happy to see kids learning; yet at the same time, it is very stressful for me to face and address a large group of people.. I'm not finding excuses for myself, but *shrugs* I'm not the best kind of people-oriented person you can find around.. At least not for now.. Of course I want to improve myself in this aspect, and I think that this internship is the perfect "training grounds" for me since it just plonks me right into a peopleful-situation, but sometimes the going gets a little tough and upsetting. Compared to the full-time experienced teachers, my situation hardly deserves a second look, but like I mentioned, they are experienced professionals who are trained to handle such situations.. not me. I keep encouraging myself before every lesson, constantly reminding myself that "I CAN DO IT!!" but somehow, confidence (which I painstakingly build up) just leaks away.. why am I so useless.. D:
I used to think I was a courageous person.. but perhaps it's alright? Since I can always strive to become a better person! (That's what this blog is for after all!) The tricky part though is ensuring that I don't change too much as I learn to grow up and adapt to the working world.
This is because I really don't want to lose sight of the real me just to suit the needs of society..
I say this because sometimes when I play around with my colleagues, and as we laugh like mad hyenas in our office, a (pretty unwelcome one at that as it spoils my mood) thought will suddenly pop up in my subconscious mind. A sticky thought questioning myself, "am I really like this? is this the real me?". Also, due to the (lack in) numbers of lessons I have everyday, my colleagues love to tease me and thanks to them, I have a free daily commentary on how free and slack a person I am, unlike the very busy them. This displeases me slightly, but somehow, this person in school will just play along, laugh it off and act like it's a good thing to be so relaxed and free at work.
But I don't get it.
I'm obviously not such a person, so why do I act as such in school? The real me is someone who is hardworking and one who tries her best in everything, am I not? So why exactly am I helping them to construct this false image of myself? I hate this feeling of doubting myself, however at the same time, I'm at a loss at what to do as well.. *sighs*
If only we could all stay the same yea? *hopeful, yet wistful smile*
That said, it's not that I don't enjoy teaching or anything.. Frankly I find teaching really fun because it makes me happy to see kids learning; yet at the same time, it is very stressful for me to face and address a large group of people.. I'm not finding excuses for myself, but *shrugs* I'm not the best kind of people-oriented person you can find around.. At least not for now.. Of course I want to improve myself in this aspect, and I think that this internship is the perfect "training grounds" for me since it just plonks me right into a peopleful-situation, but sometimes the going gets a little tough and upsetting. Compared to the full-time experienced teachers, my situation hardly deserves a second look, but like I mentioned, they are experienced professionals who are trained to handle such situations.. not me. I keep encouraging myself before every lesson, constantly reminding myself that "I CAN DO IT!!" but somehow, confidence (which I painstakingly build up) just leaks away.. why am I so useless.. D:
I used to think I was a courageous person.. but perhaps it's alright? Since I can always strive to become a better person! (That's what this blog is for after all!) The tricky part though is ensuring that I don't change too much as I learn to grow up and adapt to the working world.
This is because I really don't want to lose sight of the real me just to suit the needs of society..
I say this because sometimes when I play around with my colleagues, and as we laugh like mad hyenas in our office, a (pretty unwelcome one at that as it spoils my mood) thought will suddenly pop up in my subconscious mind. A sticky thought questioning myself, "am I really like this? is this the real me?". Also, due to the (lack in) numbers of lessons I have everyday, my colleagues love to tease me and thanks to them, I have a free daily commentary on how free and slack a person I am, unlike the very busy them. This displeases me slightly, but somehow, this person in school will just play along, laugh it off and act like it's a good thing to be so relaxed and free at work.
But I don't get it.
I'm obviously not such a person, so why do I act as such in school? The real me is someone who is hardworking and one who tries her best in everything, am I not? So why exactly am I helping them to construct this false image of myself? I hate this feeling of doubting myself, however at the same time, I'm at a loss at what to do as well.. *sighs*
If only we could all stay the same yea? *hopeful, yet wistful smile*
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Monday, 14 February 2011
OMG IT'S THE 14th FEB 2011 ALREADY!!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!! :D
HOPING THAT TODAY WILL BE A SWEET AND AWESOME DAY FOR YOU GUYS!!
Haha I can't believe it's been close to a month since I last blogged, considering how I used to blog at least once a week in the past. It's kinda sad actually :( because I do like to blog about all the fun and happy things in life, such as my hongkong trip (or rather, hk exercise regime), our underwater world outing or simply, just an evening out with friends. It feels good to put all these experiences, memories into pictures and words because it helps us to remember, and not forget about all the important things in life. Yupp, so I will definitely try to work out a day-by-day blog entry for my hongkong trip whenever I'm free- I'm sure it will make for good reading too :)
Anyway, the reason for my long absence is obviously because of my job which, more often than not, leaves me mentally exhausted by the time I get home. You might think it's weird since I usually knock off around 3-4pm, which is considered early in comparism to office jobs, but I guess teachers have it tougher, intern or not.. Frankly, I used to sleep even lesser in JC and yet still managed to cope, but somehow I tire easily nowadays. Maybe it's time to finally hit the gym, and get my metabolic rate up again XD
Speaking of school, I have both pleasant and unhappy experiences to share- which is why I'm currently in a dilemma- to be or not to be a relief teacher after this internship ends.. On good days when the students I meet are good, I go- "yes! this is why I want to be a teacher!". However, on bad days when the students are rude, defiant, disobedient and lazy (nua until like tofu, and the list goes on), I go- "oh my gosh. this is definitely not my thing. at least, not for now. I don't want to be a teacher just to get pissed off everyday". So basically, I don't know what to do after the internship because I'm so confused :O Undoubtedly, a change in school environment might help.. but I'm sorta attached to Yuhua now since I see these kids everyday.. haha I need to sort all these thoughts out soon and decide on my next course of action! And of course *rubs hands in glee* my next pay check! and OOoOHH, I will be getting my first paycheck ever tomorrow!!!! (note to self: hehe, go update bankbook tomorrow!!) ^~^ The feeling of getting one's pay is.. just so exhilarating!! *kaching!*
Before you mistake me for a see-money-eyes-open-big-bigg person XD I have to clarify that the reason for which I am so excited is purely because I can now contribute to the family income. Of course my contribution will not be that significant- how much can I do with half a month's pay after all- but at least I can start by paying my own phone bills, and perhaps chip in occasionally for the utilities bills. I'm a very filial kid, okayy ^^
Anyway, my lesson is going to start in 4 minutes time, so I'm gonna prepare naoo.
Hope to see you here soon again!! *waves*
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!! :D
HOPING THAT TODAY WILL BE A SWEET AND AWESOME DAY FOR YOU GUYS!!
Haha I can't believe it's been close to a month since I last blogged, considering how I used to blog at least once a week in the past. It's kinda sad actually :( because I do like to blog about all the fun and happy things in life, such as my hongkong trip (or rather, hk exercise regime), our underwater world outing or simply, just an evening out with friends. It feels good to put all these experiences, memories into pictures and words because it helps us to remember, and not forget about all the important things in life. Yupp, so I will definitely try to work out a day-by-day blog entry for my hongkong trip whenever I'm free- I'm sure it will make for good reading too :)
Anyway, the reason for my long absence is obviously because of my job which, more often than not, leaves me mentally exhausted by the time I get home. You might think it's weird since I usually knock off around 3-4pm, which is considered early in comparism to office jobs, but I guess teachers have it tougher, intern or not.. Frankly, I used to sleep even lesser in JC and yet still managed to cope, but somehow I tire easily nowadays. Maybe it's time to finally hit the gym, and get my metabolic rate up again XD
Speaking of school, I have both pleasant and unhappy experiences to share- which is why I'm currently in a dilemma- to be or not to be a relief teacher after this internship ends.. On good days when the students I meet are good, I go- "yes! this is why I want to be a teacher!". However, on bad days when the students are rude, defiant, disobedient and lazy (nua until like tofu, and the list goes on), I go- "oh my gosh. this is definitely not my thing. at least, not for now. I don't want to be a teacher just to get pissed off everyday". So basically, I don't know what to do after the internship because I'm so confused :O Undoubtedly, a change in school environment might help.. but I'm sorta attached to Yuhua now since I see these kids everyday.. haha I need to sort all these thoughts out soon and decide on my next course of action! And of course *rubs hands in glee* my next pay check! and OOoOHH, I will be getting my first paycheck ever tomorrow!!!! (note to self: hehe, go update bankbook tomorrow!!) ^~^ The feeling of getting one's pay is.. just so exhilarating!! *kaching!*
Before you mistake me for a see-money-eyes-open-big-bigg person XD I have to clarify that the reason for which I am so excited is purely because I can now contribute to the family income. Of course my contribution will not be that significant- how much can I do with half a month's pay after all- but at least I can start by paying my own phone bills, and perhaps chip in occasionally for the utilities bills. I'm a very filial kid, okayy ^^
Anyway, my lesson is going to start in 4 minutes time, so I'm gonna prepare naoo.
Hope to see you here soon again!! *waves*
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