I really need to/want to/should feel obliged to blog soon. So much has been happening in my life so far- from the completion of year 2 in university to going on internships (2nd one now!). And then there's the incredible learning curve (getting to know about the legal sector, know more people and understand myself that bit better), the ongoing (stressful) applications for exchange, the crazily intense and deep reflections and also, the realisation that boy, I'm really growing up.
(sigh)
But the reason why I've been putting blogging matters off for a while is precisely because of the above events- I've been so busy that I can't really take time out for a proper blog post.. And I don't want blogging to become a task- or worse still, a chore because that will ultimately just translate into even greater stress and pressure for me.
I'm no kidding when I say that I'm busy. I wake up at 7am everyday for work, reach home around 7.40pm (optimistic estimate T_T) and after a shower and dinner, it's usually close to 9.30pm. By then, I'm probably so tired that all I want to do is to simply curl up on the couch and watch tv- if you're wondering why I don't go to sleep instead, it's because I'd rather have some personal enjoyment from watching shows than to waste it on sleeping (that would be a very sad working life)- and before you know it, presto! it's midnight! I'm tired. And the whole cycle repeats again the next day.
After 4 weeks of internship, I can't exactly say I hate work but really, working is extremely tiresome. It brings out all the escapist tendencies in one and makes one feel all crappy and lousy .
I'm currently still pondering over the significance of work in life and how a balance between the two can be struck well. It's no easy feat and I'm already feeling quite troubled due to it.. but at least, the fact that I'm thinking about it should reflect progress in one's self-development.
I hope. Haha.
Signing off for the night (or is it morning already ._.)!
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Saturday, 23 February 2013
Time for another post again! ^^
I didn't actually plan to blog today but I felt pretty inspired after visiting my friend's blog. I left her blog feeling both surprised and awed; I honestly had no idea that she had such an introspective side to her, not forgetting her poetic writing style but seriously, her online personality absolutely does not match her character in real life. Those who have never seen her blog would probably be under the impression that she's a very extroverted and happy-go-lucky girl who seems to act before she thinks (she sometimes acts quite carelessly). But that's practically the total opposite of what I'm seeing online! I'm still feeling shocked and yet at the same time, happy because I feel as if we've established a more intimate connection between us now that I know how she really thinks and feels.. :') Yay?
Back to myself, perhaps I can provide some updates about my life lately.. As usual, school and studying gobbles up the bulk of my time, sleep takes up about a quarter of the day and the rest is left for everything else such as my club activities (I joined a new club this year!), family time, some me-time and.. travelling on public transport haha. If you think about it, life has just become the same ol' routine repeating day in, day out. It's not boring but neither is it exciting. It's just, that. Perhaps it's because of how mundane and tiresome school days have turned into that I don't really get the urge to blog (since there's nothing much to talk about) or more fundementally, simply a change in myself (an idea I don't agree with) but either way, the stories, thoughts and words don't flow as readily to me now..
It's sad. Plain sad.
Life still goes on.
I didn't actually plan to blog today but I felt pretty inspired after visiting my friend's blog. I left her blog feeling both surprised and awed; I honestly had no idea that she had such an introspective side to her, not forgetting her poetic writing style but seriously, her online personality absolutely does not match her character in real life. Those who have never seen her blog would probably be under the impression that she's a very extroverted and happy-go-lucky girl who seems to act before she thinks (she sometimes acts quite carelessly). But that's practically the total opposite of what I'm seeing online! I'm still feeling shocked and yet at the same time, happy because I feel as if we've established a more intimate connection between us now that I know how she really thinks and feels.. :') Yay?
Back to myself, perhaps I can provide some updates about my life lately.. As usual, school and studying gobbles up the bulk of my time, sleep takes up about a quarter of the day and the rest is left for everything else such as my club activities (I joined a new club this year!), family time, some me-time and.. travelling on public transport haha. If you think about it, life has just become the same ol' routine repeating day in, day out. It's not boring but neither is it exciting. It's just, that. Perhaps it's because of how mundane and tiresome school days have turned into that I don't really get the urge to blog (since there's nothing much to talk about) or more fundementally, simply a change in myself (an idea I don't agree with) but either way, the stories, thoughts and words don't flow as readily to me now..
It's sad. Plain sad.
Life still goes on.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Tuesday, 19 February 2013
"That is SO EMBARRASSING."
"...I'll find you and kick your ass!"
"All the BS you people submit..."
"Most of you are freaking chickens!"
"Nice to meet you Jon, FU Jon, bye!"
"Someone comes up to me and I put on my BIG fake smile.."
"...year 4s smell bad.. of desperation"
"...They smell reallyyy bad"
Why I love JKwan's classes (I shall not use his full name here because we learnt in class about the dangers social media pose to one employment prospects so well- let's not unintentionally end up sabotaging him) HAHA XD
This is why I love Canadians. HA!
"...I'll find you and kick your ass!"
"All the BS you people submit..."
"Most of you are freaking chickens!"
"Nice to meet you Jon, FU Jon, bye!"
"Someone comes up to me and I put on my BIG fake smile.."
"...year 4s smell bad.. of desperation"
"...They smell reallyyy bad"
Why I love JKwan's classes (I shall not use his full name here because we learnt in class about the dangers social media pose to one employment prospects so well- let's not unintentionally end up sabotaging him) HAHA XD
This is why I love Canadians. HA!
Monday, February 11, 2013
Monday, 11 February 2013
Remembering, then Forgetting
Addressed to: ZlWritten by: My
I once wanted so badly to be part of your life
To shield your tender soul, to make sure you survived
I thought those honest and true feelings made the best guards
Yet what returned was only a reflection of pain- cruel barbs
Working to have a kind heart torn apart
You didn't know it
But this time, it was something real, someone who really got hurt
Time passes
Now, I realise that perhaps things weren't so bad, so unworthy
For without you,
I wouldn't have learnt to be stronger
I wouldn't have found out that sincere feelings might be trampled on in the real world
More importantly
I wouldn't have known..
That I was better off without you in my life.
Goodbye, my friend.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Sunday, 10 February 2013
IT'S 2013 ALREADY!
(first time trying out Blogger on mobile haha hopefully this will translate into more posts in the future ^^)
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE! :D
(first time trying out Blogger on mobile haha hopefully this will translate into more posts in the future ^^)
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