Oops!! haha my post to be expected in the "next few days" unexpectedly dragged out into a full month! It wasn't intentional though; I do have many things in mind that I would like to put down (on computer, not paper) in words but somehow, the writing mood just never arrived D: But it's alright now cos HERE I AM! I shan't elaborate on all the uni apps process anymore because it's useless anyway- not like it will change things.. So here's the news- I will be heading to SMU Law! In fact, I just came back from FTB 2011 (Freshmen Teambuilding Camp) and mannn, was it the funnest camp ever! ^~^
Yesterday, many people were asking me about how I found the camp and my answer was the same to all of them- I had tremendous fun at FTB, and I'm really am very happy myself that I was able to enjoy the camp..
Initially, I had many misgivings about attending FTB because I haven't really enjoyed any camps in the past at all.. In fact, all I remember about OBS in sec 3 was that it was gruelling, tough, dirty and itchy (the rashes/allergy spoilt everything) and literally nothing about the people I spent time with. A part of the reason for the poor impression was also because I felt I was being treated unfairly at camp, with members picking on me for not contributing enough when I was already trying my best. It's not my fault that I'm fair and not good at sports (oh well, maybe I should have exercised more haha) which then gives people the impression that I'm weak and tofu-like. People always seem to think that I'm weak and I require people's protection, but that seriously can't be further from the truth.. Definitely, to be protected and taken care of is a nice feeling, but that doesn't necessarily mean I need people to do that for me. I'm not a useless person; I can jolly well take care of myself so I absolutely hate it when people attempt to force their misconceptions and judgment on me. This is also why I refused to let anyone carry my bag for me at FTB no matter how heavy it was (and how my fingers were almost falling off -.-).. cos even if the way people think do not change, at least I don't have to perpetuate their misconceptions.. Sure, I whine and complain and all that, but I can take care of myself well enough :) GIRL POWER!! As for all other secondary or JC CCA camps, those memories were not really significant because I didn't socialize much so naturally, I don't remember them. All I can remember is the "sian-ness" I experienced at camps haha XD
Correspondingly, I had extremely hesistant towards and skeptical about FTB, worrying about what kind of activities (and torture we will be subjected to), worrying about cleanliness and baths, worrying about my group members, my facilitators and all, that I couldn't sleep the night before. I think my imagination went into overdrive, thinking of every single horrifying scenario that could happen -.- However, it could be because of this absolutely lack of expectations that I came to enjoy FTB so much :D
SMURFS10 is really the best group I could ever have.. Everyone was so kind and understanding towards everyone else, laughing together, making precious memories together.. In particular, I thought it was very considerate of them during the Final Challenge where they made sure that poor runners *guilty look* were alright at all times. (maybe they were scolding and cursing inside hahaha but at least I didn't have to hear it) For once, I really felt like I was a part of the team.. it was a refreshing feeling and I sincerely want that to continue..
I love you guys, SMURFS10!!
(I gotta go now so I shall blog more about the camp on Monday!)
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Tuesday, 31 May 2011
Woohoo it's been close to 2 months since I last blogged! Unbeliebable! (hehe as you can see, I'm a Belieber now! JB rocks!) Many things have happened since though, with friends, with university applications, with life- to the extent that it's amazing (in a somewhat sad way) how 2 months can change so many things and people.. but I shall leave that for my next post which should be arriving in a few days! Please do look foward to it :) oh! and a special post dedicated to all my idols will be coming soon too so.. TILL THEN! :D
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Saturday, 9 April 2011
Kyaaa I originally had a lot of stuff to blog about last night, but I forgot most of it already.
Anyway, yesterday was MM’s BIRTHDAY!! :D
Happy Birthday Mummy! I love you! Love you forever and ever ^_^ *MUACKS*
And happy birthday to Tess and Cheryl- or was it Joy as well.. I still remember you guys clearly, as if the times we spent together were just yesterday, and I wonder if you guys still remember me..
The past is really not too good for me though, when memories can only remain as memories. The word “friends” becomes useless and ain’t mean anything when they can only remain as a figment of the past. But I’m learning to let go now, because dwelling too much on the past is unhealthy. Yup so we should always look forward in life instead! Gogogoooo!!
Currently, all the university admissions interviews/tests are over already so all that’s left is to wait for a reply- hopefully good news! Meanwhile, I still have 2 scholarships activity/interview coming up but I am gunning for the BCA one because it has always been something I wanted regardless of the university course concerned. So I really do hope I get the BCA scholarship offer! :D
Moving on, wait, before I start on the oh-so-accurate love horoscope I saw on yahoo yesterday[, let me provide some advice regarding the interviews I have went for so far. I did benefit quite a bit (in terms of mental preparation) from existing sites (thank you guys so muchie), so to all the aspiring graduates out there who are unsure of what to expect at interviews , let me enlighten you a bit.
University Admissions
Medicine course:
Interview comprises of 2 components- a formal interview with (probably high-ranking) staff at MOH/NUH/NUS followed by a semi-formal (meaning it’s alright to smile more and speak more casually) interview with medical professionals, eg. nurses, doctors etc.
Formal interview: 3:1 ratio
It went pretty badly for me because firstly, I got a shock when I learnt that there were actually 2 interviews on the same day; somehow I got the impression that the 2nd interview would only be carried out if one got shortlisted. Secondly, I didn’t have time to “cool down” after I reached the place and seriously, a giddy, light-headed me doesn’t go well with a formal interview. Much less with interviewers who look so stern and grouchy that if they had a choice, they would probably roll me under the rug and leave me there -.- And did I mention, I absolutely hate their raised eyebrows and questioning eyes- mind if I shaved those brows off? ^^ if you wanna doubt me, then don’t ask me in the first place right?
Also, I think the fact that I was the last candidate on that day made things worse. The interviewers were most likely tired and their minds deadened after listening to 30 immature(?), or super gei si 19 year olds proclaiming their desire to be the next Mother Teresa. Frankly, it’s all over the net (even endorsed by some med students!) that the success of medical interviews depends on (99%) how good a scammer you are and (1%) of true dreams and passion.
If you can’t convince, confuse. :P
Questions asked: SURPRISESURPRISE here!
I was expecting the usual “Why do you want to be a doctor? What do you think doctors do? What kind of doctor are you interested in becoming?” kind of questions but alas! Nobody asked me that. Instead, they grilled me a lot on my subject combination in school, as well as my CCAs. (I doubt they even read my moving personal statement *sniffs*) According to them, if you’re an arts/ humanities student, it doesn’t make sense to aspire to be a doctor which is pure crap to me. So if you really are one, prepare a cool answer to throw back at them!
I’m not even an arts student in the first place, just that I like to read, write and play the guitar, but they needlessly attacked me on that. I have to admit that threw me off a little- point to note, stay CALM always! Just because I like to do artsy stuff doesn’t mean that I HAVE to be an artist, writer or fashion designer. Just because you’re a doctor doesn’t mean you can’t be involved in the arts. WHAT KINDA LOGIC IS THIS?! *continues yelling*
Next, if you haven’t been taking part in sciencey stuff and medicine-related internships, be prepared to answer WHY. And if you have taken part in non-medicine-related internships, be prepared to answer WHY NOT THOSE. ZZzZz, of course if the motivation is money, don’t say that. :D
Oh and unless you are super sure of the field you want to specialize in= well-informed enough, don’t gei kiang XD
That’s all the hints I can provide!
Semi-formal interview: 3:1 ratio
This is difficult to prepare for because the conversation usually takes shape based on the individual; meaning your hobbies, life, principles are the ones guiding the interview. Just make sure you know (clearly) why you want to be a doctor, some ethics a doctor should have and be informed on news in the medical sphere. Be natural and who knows, your sincerity might get through to them! (basically what I did hahahahaha)
Okie Dokie. Enough scoops on interviews for the day :D
Seeya back here another time!
Anyway, yesterday was MM’s BIRTHDAY!! :D
Happy Birthday Mummy! I love you! Love you forever and ever ^_^ *MUACKS*
And happy birthday to Tess and Cheryl- or was it Joy as well.. I still remember you guys clearly, as if the times we spent together were just yesterday, and I wonder if you guys still remember me..
The past is really not too good for me though, when memories can only remain as memories. The word “friends” becomes useless and ain’t mean anything when they can only remain as a figment of the past. But I’m learning to let go now, because dwelling too much on the past is unhealthy. Yup so we should always look forward in life instead! Gogogoooo!!
Currently, all the university admissions interviews/tests are over already so all that’s left is to wait for a reply- hopefully good news! Meanwhile, I still have 2 scholarships activity/interview coming up but I am gunning for the BCA one because it has always been something I wanted regardless of the university course concerned. So I really do hope I get the BCA scholarship offer! :D
Moving on, wait, before I start on the oh-so-accurate love horoscope I saw on yahoo yesterday[, let me provide some advice regarding the interviews I have went for so far. I did benefit quite a bit (in terms of mental preparation) from existing sites (thank you guys so muchie), so to all the aspiring graduates out there who are unsure of what to expect at interviews , let me enlighten you a bit.
University Admissions
Medicine course:
Interview comprises of 2 components- a formal interview with (probably high-ranking) staff at MOH/NUH/NUS followed by a semi-formal (meaning it’s alright to smile more and speak more casually) interview with medical professionals, eg. nurses, doctors etc.
Formal interview: 3:1 ratio
It went pretty badly for me because firstly, I got a shock when I learnt that there were actually 2 interviews on the same day; somehow I got the impression that the 2nd interview would only be carried out if one got shortlisted. Secondly, I didn’t have time to “cool down” after I reached the place and seriously, a giddy, light-headed me doesn’t go well with a formal interview. Much less with interviewers who look so stern and grouchy that if they had a choice, they would probably roll me under the rug and leave me there -.- And did I mention, I absolutely hate their raised eyebrows and questioning eyes- mind if I shaved those brows off? ^^ if you wanna doubt me, then don’t ask me in the first place right?
Also, I think the fact that I was the last candidate on that day made things worse. The interviewers were most likely tired and their minds deadened after listening to 30 immature(?), or super gei si 19 year olds proclaiming their desire to be the next Mother Teresa. Frankly, it’s all over the net (even endorsed by some med students!) that the success of medical interviews depends on (99%) how good a scammer you are and (1%) of true dreams and passion.
If you can’t convince, confuse. :P
Questions asked: SURPRISESURPRISE here!
I was expecting the usual “Why do you want to be a doctor? What do you think doctors do? What kind of doctor are you interested in becoming?” kind of questions but alas! Nobody asked me that. Instead, they grilled me a lot on my subject combination in school, as well as my CCAs. (I doubt they even read my moving personal statement *sniffs*) According to them, if you’re an arts/ humanities student, it doesn’t make sense to aspire to be a doctor which is pure crap to me. So if you really are one, prepare a cool answer to throw back at them!
I’m not even an arts student in the first place, just that I like to read, write and play the guitar, but they needlessly attacked me on that. I have to admit that threw me off a little- point to note, stay CALM always! Just because I like to do artsy stuff doesn’t mean that I HAVE to be an artist, writer or fashion designer. Just because you’re a doctor doesn’t mean you can’t be involved in the arts. WHAT KINDA LOGIC IS THIS?! *continues yelling*
Next, if you haven’t been taking part in sciencey stuff and medicine-related internships, be prepared to answer WHY. And if you have taken part in non-medicine-related internships, be prepared to answer WHY NOT THOSE. ZZzZz, of course if the motivation is money, don’t say that. :D
Oh and unless you are super sure of the field you want to specialize in= well-informed enough, don’t gei kiang XD
That’s all the hints I can provide!
Semi-formal interview: 3:1 ratio
This is difficult to prepare for because the conversation usually takes shape based on the individual; meaning your hobbies, life, principles are the ones guiding the interview. Just make sure you know (clearly) why you want to be a doctor, some ethics a doctor should have and be informed on news in the medical sphere. Be natural and who knows, your sincerity might get through to them! (basically what I did hahahahaha)
Okie Dokie. Enough scoops on interviews for the day :D
Seeya back here another time!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Sunday, 3 April 2010
I decided that I had to create a blog post, fu or no fu.
I’m not exactly sure what I want to blog about though, so let’s just start with my latest fb update-“won’t hurt no more”. I posted that last night after I finally came to the painful conclusion that enough was enough- friends are supposed to care for and love each other, friends are supposed to make one feel all warm and fuzzy inside and more than anything else, friends are supposed to bring out the best in each other! People who do not care about making you feel upset.. are not true friends after all.. In the past, I used to believe that I was the one at fault for imposing my own definition and expectations of friendship on him, and that perhaps, it really did cause unnecessary pressure for him, leading to his withdrawal from the relationship. But I did change after that! I worked hard to create the most comfortable environment for this precious friendship, but it seems that my effort and hard work are worthless in his eyes.. because he doesn’t seem to care at all.. He doesn’t give a damn about cutting me off from his life anytime he feels like it, he doesn’t give a damn about losing me as a friend, and neither does he give a damn about how I feel. I really thought that he would understand after telling him so many times that I see him as a very good friend and that he was an important one to me.. and yet, very apparently, he doesn’t understand. At all. It hurts even more because he’s such an important friend to me. And frankly, the feeling when you finally acknowledge the fact that maybe you don’t matter to him at all is horrible. I refused to believe it last year because that would only mean that all my efforts went to naught but now, I’m left with no choice eh?
But that’s life, isn’t it?
Harsh and cruel.
And yet, despite going through the same thing over and over again, it still never fails to amaze me as to how people can hurt others so easily just to protect themselves, with not the least regard about the pain others are suffering as a result of their actions. Well, I’m going to stop being silly. I don’t deserve being treated this way, so regardless of how much I cherish it; I’m taking a step back. I’m not giving up, but I think it should be time someone else tried.
我不需要你的好。我只是不要你对我不好。
也别和我搞什么复杂，本小姐不屑了。
Alright, enough of the whole emo friendship-is-fragile thing. I’ve got- or rather, I’m supposed to have more serious things on my mind, like the 4 interviews next week. I’m like, “this is totally crazy!” because 4 is seriously a lot D: and I’m just not good in interviews luh.. (psst the worst part is that I start laughing when I get overly-nervous -.- just imagine an extremely giggly girl facing 2 stoned-faced interviewers..) Also, the whole preparation for interviews is getting slightly on my nerves; I understand why I have to prepare- to impress the socks off the interviewers, but I’m not used to “selling” myself in say 15-20 minutes. I mean, people don’t usually spend their lives thinking about what sets them apart from the possible boring-and-average-looking-and-unexceptional-human-being next to them.. or if they do even think about it, they might come to the scary conclusion that they are that very boring-and-average-looking-and-unexceptional-human-being.
The world is a meritocratic one, and that sucks when you’re stuck right in the middle- which is the sticky situation I am in now. I’m neither the best, nor I am very lousy- instead, I’m just, so-disturbing–that-it-warrants-an-ohmygawd-average. And the problem is that when you’re average, you are supposed to make up for that by being an uber persuasive speaker, which I don’t think I am- at least not in front of interviewers. I’m quite a good speaker around my family and friends, but somehow, in an interview setting, my brain and mind just sloooowsss dooownnn and my 反应慢半拍 one. I only come up with the fantastic and pretty-sounding answers after the interviews end ._.
Okay, I think it’s time I go think of some fancy and impressive answers now! I know the interviewers will be very critical and try to throw me off balance with their questions, so I gotta be strong! Oh lastly, just let me lament the fact that not everyone is fortunate enough to be able to grow up with a life-long ambition and dream (they love to ask this question but they seldom realize that perhaps, when they were our age, they did not have any answers too). Hence, don’t be hasty in calling the rest of us dreamless pokes, or laugh at us for being lost in life without any goals- because..
A dream does not come easy.
When people have to balance their dreams and practicality, their ambitions and society, dreams cease to be dreams.
I’m not exactly sure what I want to blog about though, so let’s just start with my latest fb update-“won’t hurt no more”. I posted that last night after I finally came to the painful conclusion that enough was enough- friends are supposed to care for and love each other, friends are supposed to make one feel all warm and fuzzy inside and more than anything else, friends are supposed to bring out the best in each other! People who do not care about making you feel upset.. are not true friends after all.. In the past, I used to believe that I was the one at fault for imposing my own definition and expectations of friendship on him, and that perhaps, it really did cause unnecessary pressure for him, leading to his withdrawal from the relationship. But I did change after that! I worked hard to create the most comfortable environment for this precious friendship, but it seems that my effort and hard work are worthless in his eyes.. because he doesn’t seem to care at all.. He doesn’t give a damn about cutting me off from his life anytime he feels like it, he doesn’t give a damn about losing me as a friend, and neither does he give a damn about how I feel. I really thought that he would understand after telling him so many times that I see him as a very good friend and that he was an important one to me.. and yet, very apparently, he doesn’t understand. At all. It hurts even more because he’s such an important friend to me. And frankly, the feeling when you finally acknowledge the fact that maybe you don’t matter to him at all is horrible. I refused to believe it last year because that would only mean that all my efforts went to naught but now, I’m left with no choice eh?
But that’s life, isn’t it?
Harsh and cruel.
And yet, despite going through the same thing over and over again, it still never fails to amaze me as to how people can hurt others so easily just to protect themselves, with not the least regard about the pain others are suffering as a result of their actions. Well, I’m going to stop being silly. I don’t deserve being treated this way, so regardless of how much I cherish it; I’m taking a step back. I’m not giving up, but I think it should be time someone else tried.
我不需要你的好。我只是不要你对我不好。
也别和我搞什么复杂，本小姐不屑了。
Alright, enough of the whole emo friendship-is-fragile thing. I’ve got- or rather, I’m supposed to have more serious things on my mind, like the 4 interviews next week. I’m like, “this is totally crazy!” because 4 is seriously a lot D: and I’m just not good in interviews luh.. (psst the worst part is that I start laughing when I get overly-nervous -.- just imagine an extremely giggly girl facing 2 stoned-faced interviewers..) Also, the whole preparation for interviews is getting slightly on my nerves; I understand why I have to prepare- to impress the socks off the interviewers, but I’m not used to “selling” myself in say 15-20 minutes. I mean, people don’t usually spend their lives thinking about what sets them apart from the possible boring-and-average-looking-and-unexceptional-human-being next to them.. or if they do even think about it, they might come to the scary conclusion that they are that very boring-and-average-looking-and-unexceptional-human-being.
The world is a meritocratic one, and that sucks when you’re stuck right in the middle- which is the sticky situation I am in now. I’m neither the best, nor I am very lousy- instead, I’m just, so-disturbing–that-it-warrants-an-ohmygawd-average. And the problem is that when you’re average, you are supposed to make up for that by being an uber persuasive speaker, which I don’t think I am- at least not in front of interviewers. I’m quite a good speaker around my family and friends, but somehow, in an interview setting, my brain and mind just sloooowsss dooownnn and my 反应慢半拍 one. I only come up with the fantastic and pretty-sounding answers after the interviews end ._.
Okay, I think it’s time I go think of some fancy and impressive answers now! I know the interviewers will be very critical and try to throw me off balance with their questions, so I gotta be strong! Oh lastly, just let me lament the fact that not everyone is fortunate enough to be able to grow up with a life-long ambition and dream (they love to ask this question but they seldom realize that perhaps, when they were our age, they did not have any answers too). Hence, don’t be hasty in calling the rest of us dreamless pokes, or laugh at us for being lost in life without any goals- because..
A dream does not come easy.
When people have to balance their dreams and practicality, their ambitions and society, dreams cease to be dreams.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Tuesday, 15 March 2011
Awww man, the interval between my posts is getting longer and longer D: It's not that I have nothing to type or that I don't want to type; in fact I have lots to type but somehow by the time I get home and sit in front of the computer, that "I-wanna-blogggg" feeling is already gone. But I shall try hard and get that fu~ back! Yupp anyway to update things a little bit, I'm officially unemployed now! My teaching internship ended last friday so now I'm jobless again X) but I think this rest is well-deserved cos the past 2 months has been pretty stressing. I do like teaching a lot, but sometimes I really can't cope with the demands of having to face 30 kids by myself. Perhaps it's time to retreat back into my comfort zone for a while.. and stop typing here haha! BYEE
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Wednesday, 23 February 2010
Back from a math staff meeting where the math teachers are supposed to come up with lesson plans, and brainstorm as to how to improve their teaching strategies together. I don't think I was of much help because I'm not a real teacher after all; I have no idea what kind of common mistakes or misconceptions students have regarding trigonometry and neither do I have any secret formula to teaching trigonometry. Frankly, I don't even remember how my teacher taught me trigonometry. -.- So I can only just sit there and ston- erm no, listen attentively :D
I shall stop here for now. Till then!
I shall stop here for now. Till then!
Friday, February 18, 2011
Friday, 18 February 2011
The weekends are hereee :) Hahaha I love nothing more than just sitting around at home, resting, watching tv or doodling. That's how we enjoy life eh!
That said, it's not that I don't enjoy teaching or anything.. Frankly I find teaching really fun because it makes me happy to see kids learning; yet at the same time, it is very stressful for me to face and address a large group of people.. I'm not finding excuses for myself, but *shrugs* I'm not the best kind of people-oriented person you can find around.. At least not for now.. Of course I want to improve myself in this aspect, and I think that this internship is the perfect "training grounds" for me since it just plonks me right into a peopleful-situation, but sometimes the going gets a little tough and upsetting. Compared to the full-time experienced teachers, my situation hardly deserves a second look, but like I mentioned, they are experienced professionals who are trained to handle such situations.. not me. I keep encouraging myself before every lesson, constantly reminding myself that "I CAN DO IT!!" but somehow, confidence (which I painstakingly build up) just leaks away.. why am I so useless.. D:
I used to think I was a courageous person.. but perhaps it's alright? Since I can always strive to become a better person! (That's what this blog is for after all!) The tricky part though is ensuring that I don't change too much as I learn to grow up and adapt to the working world.
This is because I really don't want to lose sight of the real me just to suit the needs of society..
I say this because sometimes when I play around with my colleagues, and as we laugh like mad hyenas in our office, a (pretty unwelcome one at that as it spoils my mood) thought will suddenly pop up in my subconscious mind. A sticky thought questioning myself, "am I really like this? is this the real me?". Also, due to the (lack in) numbers of lessons I have everyday, my colleagues love to tease me and thanks to them, I have a free daily commentary on how free and slack a person I am, unlike the very busy them. This displeases me slightly, but somehow, this person in school will just play along, laugh it off and act like it's a good thing to be so relaxed and free at work.
But I don't get it.
I'm obviously not such a person, so why do I act as such in school? The real me is someone who is hardworking and one who tries her best in everything, am I not? So why exactly am I helping them to construct this false image of myself? I hate this feeling of doubting myself, however at the same time, I'm at a loss at what to do as well.. *sighs*
If only we could all stay the same yea? *hopeful, yet wistful smile*
That said, it's not that I don't enjoy teaching or anything.. Frankly I find teaching really fun because it makes me happy to see kids learning; yet at the same time, it is very stressful for me to face and address a large group of people.. I'm not finding excuses for myself, but *shrugs* I'm not the best kind of people-oriented person you can find around.. At least not for now.. Of course I want to improve myself in this aspect, and I think that this internship is the perfect "training grounds" for me since it just plonks me right into a peopleful-situation, but sometimes the going gets a little tough and upsetting. Compared to the full-time experienced teachers, my situation hardly deserves a second look, but like I mentioned, they are experienced professionals who are trained to handle such situations.. not me. I keep encouraging myself before every lesson, constantly reminding myself that "I CAN DO IT!!" but somehow, confidence (which I painstakingly build up) just leaks away.. why am I so useless.. D:
I used to think I was a courageous person.. but perhaps it's alright? Since I can always strive to become a better person! (That's what this blog is for after all!) The tricky part though is ensuring that I don't change too much as I learn to grow up and adapt to the working world.
This is because I really don't want to lose sight of the real me just to suit the needs of society..
I say this because sometimes when I play around with my colleagues, and as we laugh like mad hyenas in our office, a (pretty unwelcome one at that as it spoils my mood) thought will suddenly pop up in my subconscious mind. A sticky thought questioning myself, "am I really like this? is this the real me?". Also, due to the (lack in) numbers of lessons I have everyday, my colleagues love to tease me and thanks to them, I have a free daily commentary on how free and slack a person I am, unlike the very busy them. This displeases me slightly, but somehow, this person in school will just play along, laugh it off and act like it's a good thing to be so relaxed and free at work.
But I don't get it.
I'm obviously not such a person, so why do I act as such in school? The real me is someone who is hardworking and one who tries her best in everything, am I not? So why exactly am I helping them to construct this false image of myself? I hate this feeling of doubting myself, however at the same time, I'm at a loss at what to do as well.. *sighs*
If only we could all stay the same yea? *hopeful, yet wistful smile*
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Monday, 14 February 2011
OMG IT'S THE 14th FEB 2011 ALREADY!!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!! :D
HOPING THAT TODAY WILL BE A SWEET AND AWESOME DAY FOR YOU GUYS!!
Haha I can't believe it's been close to a month since I last blogged, considering how I used to blog at least once a week in the past. It's kinda sad actually :( because I do like to blog about all the fun and happy things in life, such as my hongkong trip (or rather, hk exercise regime), our underwater world outing or simply, just an evening out with friends. It feels good to put all these experiences, memories into pictures and words because it helps us to remember, and not forget about all the important things in life. Yupp, so I will definitely try to work out a day-by-day blog entry for my hongkong trip whenever I'm free- I'm sure it will make for good reading too :)
Anyway, the reason for my long absence is obviously because of my job which, more often than not, leaves me mentally exhausted by the time I get home. You might think it's weird since I usually knock off around 3-4pm, which is considered early in comparism to office jobs, but I guess teachers have it tougher, intern or not.. Frankly, I used to sleep even lesser in JC and yet still managed to cope, but somehow I tire easily nowadays. Maybe it's time to finally hit the gym, and get my metabolic rate up again XD
Speaking of school, I have both pleasant and unhappy experiences to share- which is why I'm currently in a dilemma- to be or not to be a relief teacher after this internship ends.. On good days when the students I meet are good, I go- "yes! this is why I want to be a teacher!". However, on bad days when the students are rude, defiant, disobedient and lazy (nua until like tofu, and the list goes on), I go- "oh my gosh. this is definitely not my thing. at least, not for now. I don't want to be a teacher just to get pissed off everyday". So basically, I don't know what to do after the internship because I'm so confused :O Undoubtedly, a change in school environment might help.. but I'm sorta attached to Yuhua now since I see these kids everyday.. haha I need to sort all these thoughts out soon and decide on my next course of action! And of course *rubs hands in glee* my next pay check! and OOoOHH, I will be getting my first paycheck ever tomorrow!!!! (note to self: hehe, go update bankbook tomorrow!!) ^~^ The feeling of getting one's pay is.. just so exhilarating!! *kaching!*
Before you mistake me for a see-money-eyes-open-big-bigg person XD I have to clarify that the reason for which I am so excited is purely because I can now contribute to the family income. Of course my contribution will not be that significant- how much can I do with half a month's pay after all- but at least I can start by paying my own phone bills, and perhaps chip in occasionally for the utilities bills. I'm a very filial kid, okayy ^^
Anyway, my lesson is going to start in 4 minutes time, so I'm gonna prepare naoo.
Hope to see you here soon again!! *waves*
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!! :D
HOPING THAT TODAY WILL BE A SWEET AND AWESOME DAY FOR YOU GUYS!!
Haha I can't believe it's been close to a month since I last blogged, considering how I used to blog at least once a week in the past. It's kinda sad actually :( because I do like to blog about all the fun and happy things in life, such as my hongkong trip (or rather, hk exercise regime), our underwater world outing or simply, just an evening out with friends. It feels good to put all these experiences, memories into pictures and words because it helps us to remember, and not forget about all the important things in life. Yupp, so I will definitely try to work out a day-by-day blog entry for my hongkong trip whenever I'm free- I'm sure it will make for good reading too :)
Anyway, the reason for my long absence is obviously because of my job which, more often than not, leaves me mentally exhausted by the time I get home. You might think it's weird since I usually knock off around 3-4pm, which is considered early in comparism to office jobs, but I guess teachers have it tougher, intern or not.. Frankly, I used to sleep even lesser in JC and yet still managed to cope, but somehow I tire easily nowadays. Maybe it's time to finally hit the gym, and get my metabolic rate up again XD
Speaking of school, I have both pleasant and unhappy experiences to share- which is why I'm currently in a dilemma- to be or not to be a relief teacher after this internship ends.. On good days when the students I meet are good, I go- "yes! this is why I want to be a teacher!". However, on bad days when the students are rude, defiant, disobedient and lazy (nua until like tofu, and the list goes on), I go- "oh my gosh. this is definitely not my thing. at least, not for now. I don't want to be a teacher just to get pissed off everyday". So basically, I don't know what to do after the internship because I'm so confused :O Undoubtedly, a change in school environment might help.. but I'm sorta attached to Yuhua now since I see these kids everyday.. haha I need to sort all these thoughts out soon and decide on my next course of action! And of course *rubs hands in glee* my next pay check! and OOoOHH, I will be getting my first paycheck ever tomorrow!!!! (note to self: hehe, go update bankbook tomorrow!!) ^~^ The feeling of getting one's pay is.. just so exhilarating!! *kaching!*
Before you mistake me for a see-money-eyes-open-big-bigg person XD I have to clarify that the reason for which I am so excited is purely because I can now contribute to the family income. Of course my contribution will not be that significant- how much can I do with half a month's pay after all- but at least I can start by paying my own phone bills, and perhaps chip in occasionally for the utilities bills. I'm a very filial kid, okayy ^^
Anyway, my lesson is going to start in 4 minutes time, so I'm gonna prepare naoo.
Hope to see you here soon again!! *waves*
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Thursday, 20 January 2011
Heyy people.. finally had the time and the right mood to blog..
Back from school now and frankly, I'm rather demoralised.. I'm in charge of a group of sec4 students for math and really.. their lack of motivation or enthusiasm for math is getting to me.. I'm only going to be there for 2 months but I seriously, sincerely hope that these 2 months can help make a difference in someone's life.. Of course you might find this highly idealistic, and I myself think that it might be too much to achieve, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to try. I'm not going down without a fight. And no way am I going to give up on these kids.. They may have lost their passion for mathematics, and dislike their math teacher, but I'm not giving up on them. Budget students or not. As long as they are my students, I'm going to do my very best. It's tough to set my pride aside when dealing with their jokes, ignorance and weird stuff in general, and even more tiring and emotionally traumatising when trying to get through to students, but as I said, 2 months. 60+days. If I fail to help them, then all I can do is lament the fact that I wasn't good enough. Otherwise, let's all do our best for these kids yea! Add value to these budget kids!! JIAYOUUUU :D
Apart from work though, I haven't been doing much except drawing and creating some geog notes for the students cos I'm usually pretty tired by the time I come home from school. Most of my friends are also busy working, so nobody really bothers to stay in contact (except dear qiqi :)) even the closer ones, so.. I should just concentrate on work, I guess.. and make more new friends like ramya, crystal, fathima and wilson :)
I feel grownup nowadays, either when I'm alone in my office or eating in the canteen, and I can't say I'm liking it..
I don't feel ready to grow up..
Are you??
Back from school now and frankly, I'm rather demoralised.. I'm in charge of a group of sec4 students for math and really.. their lack of motivation or enthusiasm for math is getting to me.. I'm only going to be there for 2 months but I seriously, sincerely hope that these 2 months can help make a difference in someone's life.. Of course you might find this highly idealistic, and I myself think that it might be too much to achieve, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to try. I'm not going down without a fight. And no way am I going to give up on these kids.. They may have lost their passion for mathematics, and dislike their math teacher, but I'm not giving up on them. Budget students or not. As long as they are my students, I'm going to do my very best. It's tough to set my pride aside when dealing with their jokes, ignorance and weird stuff in general, and even more tiring and emotionally traumatising when trying to get through to students, but as I said, 2 months. 60+days. If I fail to help them, then all I can do is lament the fact that I wasn't good enough. Otherwise, let's all do our best for these kids yea! Add value to these budget kids!! JIAYOUUUU :D
Apart from work though, I haven't been doing much except drawing and creating some geog notes for the students cos I'm usually pretty tired by the time I come home from school. Most of my friends are also busy working, so nobody really bothers to stay in contact (except dear qiqi :)) even the closer ones, so.. I should just concentrate on work, I guess.. and make more new friends like ramya, crystal, fathima and wilson :)
I feel grownup nowadays, either when I'm alone in my office or eating in the canteen, and I can't say I'm liking it..
I don't feel ready to grow up..
Are you??
Monday, January 3, 2011
Monday, 3 January 2011
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!! :D
will tell you more about my hk trip when I feel like typing a longgg post. which will most likely be during the weekends after my moe training days haha~
otherwise, people not working yet, enjoy slacking off ^^
whilst the people working work their asses off haha XD
till then!! *waves*
will tell you more about my hk trip when I feel like typing a longgg post. which will most likely be during the weekends after my moe training days haha~
otherwise, people not working yet, enjoy slacking off ^^
whilst the people working work their asses off haha XD
till then!! *waves*
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