Finally got all my papers back, save GP.. but I think it's not going to make things any better cos I know myself that I messed that up too.. Time to mug GP big timee!
Moving on.. Yesterday was dearest minnie's birthday and the ideal birthday present that I was planning to give her (that was before my exams took place) was good, even fantastic grades, but.. *stares sadly at aftermath* that's not really possible now. "o(><)o" Haha, funnily, my grades sound like some kindergarden school song~
I really do want to improve, but no amount of studying seems to help my Physics results which is floundering like a dead fish at the bottom of a dry well.. but I will still study hard cos I don't want to let my years of studies go to waste, never..
That was at 11.45am, but as of 11.26pm now, my Physics results has improved by one grade (YAYY), to a more acceptable one. Actually my real grade is supposed to be a B (61marks!!) cos I lost marks due to stupid things like missing workings/error in workings though I had the correct answers; so frankly, I'm satisfied with myself. A 'B' is like a great improvement from last year already. Heehee, the fish has come back to life.
anyway, cute MINNIE MOUSE, happieee birthdayy!! I love you!!
And to my primary school friends, tessa and cheryl, happie birthday too =) I still do think of you guys, and I hope you do too..
OHH and today I met a senior whom I haven't seen (but missed) or contacted for many, many months cos all these while, he had been stuck in army camp with a wonky phone that hated me (and I message until I pek-cheh already). It was a really brief encounter but it brought back so many memories that for the next few hours, I was stuck in this melancholic mood, thinking about everything that had happened over the last year and the conflicting feelings I experienced.
He used to say I was like a iron China doll or something like that, but unfortunately I'm not as strong as I made myself out to be because I became too reliant on him. So when he was gone, I felt slightly helpless and lonely for a period of time; the feeling is just like losing a brother/cousin whom one has grown to depend on, so naturally I lost my direction. But I'm glad that the feeling is wearing away gradually..
It's a good lesson nonetheless. A good reminder for me to not get too close to just anybody again..
Human relationships. fragile. unable to withstand the test of time.
